But I hate the way people look at me when I talk about you, as if they needed to find a way to change the subject, as if the pain was still too fresh in my mind, as if it was dangerous to me to say your name.
I do not want you to become a taboo subject, something that my friends avoid like the plague. I want to continue telling stories about you. I want to keep talking about you as if you were still alive.
I am not crazy. I know you left. I accept that you will not come back. I passed the denial phase.
I never want to forget you. I never want to lose the moments we shared.
So, I’m sorry if my honesty makes others feel uncomfortable, if they would like me to refrain from saying your name and talk about something lighter, but I’ll never stop mentioning how much you Make me laugh, how beautiful your smile is, how much your advice is still precious to me today.